DEPRESSION- A Thief

There I was, lying on my bed in the middle of the day, a Saturday for that matter. I could feel it creeping in, slowly but very tactically and meticulously. Like a thief, trying to rob a house at night, I felt like I was about to get robbed. Yes my mind was troubled. It all seemed like the world was moving and sadly, I wasn’t. You know that feeling of being left behind right?

All of a sudden, everything about my life seemed wrong. I no longer felt comfortable with what I studied in school, I wondered if I had the right friends and chased the right dreams. My challenges all came like a rush through my veins. No matter how hard I tried, it kept on coming. I wished someone could hear me or feel me. How come they can’t see me struggling?

It’s then that I understood that you can be in a crowd yet feel lonely. But why? Why now! Could it have been something I saw? How did I get to think so lowly of my self in such a short interval. I remember going through a couple of friends WhatsApp status earlier that day. So many wedding announcements, engagements, promotions goals crushed and lots and lots of smiles.

Wait a minute, I’m I being jealous now. I should be happy for them. On second thoughts, I’m truly happy for them and wish for more of such happy moments but I just wished I was a part of it.

Some of the signs you may be feeling depressed are thoughts or feelings of

Not being loved
shame or digrace
being left out
not achieving one’s goals or failure
environmental change
heart break
etc

Some of the things you have to remember if you feel that way are

You are loved
so long as there’s life, there’s hope
You are not alone. You may not feel like it but God is with you, has always been and always will be.
It’s an attack from the devil, refuse to succumb
Your future is bright. Your circumstances may just be obscuring you from that reality. Choose to look beyond the unseen.
It’s not the end of you. If it was, you wouldn’t have been reading this now.

What to do

Smile: watch a movie, listen to music, etc just do anything you know will make you smile.
Acts of love: there’s a feeling you get when you give out love. It’s so fulfilling. If you can make someone smile, I mean, you definitely have a reason to live. When was the last time you made someone smile?
Go through your dreams and plans over again, do you really want to throw it away?

Depression is a mood disorder that causes a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. ( Definition by Mayo Clinic)

Depression is a thief, don’t let it rob you of your joy, happiness, future, loved ones.

Keep on keeping on.